finally on antibiotics and my legs are clearing up
I get where Beckie is coming from here and I just wanted to say that what she says near the end of the video rings true for me too—I won’t be especially loud or activist-y. For me this is simply due to the fact that I have had to “put myself first” a lot lately and unfortunately my presence online has suffered for that.
It’s a complex issue, how our community is represented socially and medically. However I do think that the BFRB umbrella-term is best for raising awareness for all disorders at this moment in time. Derma/excoriation disorder does suffer its own stigmas of being a more “normal” behavior and thus not as serious. Piggybacking on trichotillomania which does get more attention despite being somewhat less prominent….well I don’t think it’s a disaster, especially due to the number of people who suffer from both. And medically, treatments coming out for one behavior will likely benefit the next. As Beckie says they are different, HOWEVER referring to them as a set of behaviors reflects the fact that they likely emerge from the same genetic difference. I think of them as obsessive (and destructive) self-grooming behaviors, which as it happens often evolve and change for people in their manifestations.
I dunno. It’s hard. It’s confusing. We all want and need help and I don’t think banding together this week is bad. I will be somewhat preoccupied though and I really wish I could be there for everyone more this week and every week…
Here’s a tip:
BFRB Awareness Week is coming, and we’ve got a lot planned! Here’s the first release of what we’re doing, and we need your participation for it!
Nonono you need to go to a doctor if you have staph. There are many strains, a lot of which can be deadly, and even if you don't think it's bad, it could turn out to be something terrible like MRSA (SUPER dangerous). I contracted MRSA from picking and pretty much it's the worst thing ever if left untreated. Get the antibiotics. Plus, not only do they help you, but they keep it from spreading. Staph can even be contracted through just touching the same door-handle as someone who's had it.
Yeah I should probably try to care more about myself…depression habit. I mean I’m 90% sure it’s a staph infection but my mom’s a nurse and a total health-freak and she didn’t think anything of it.
Question: if you had MRSA, isn’t that the kind resistant to antibiotics? How do they even treat it in that case?
Update: the nail polish hasn’t helped much but I also forgot to start by linking the scent to anti-picking mantras which has helped me with lotions in the past. The scent is still there. The polish hasn’t chipped and I am actually pretty impressed with the consistency, although some people have had a bad experience with it so maybe the bottles are sort of hit or miss.
September has GOT to be a big step forward for me. I don’t care about keeping “pick free” flawlessly, but something about the fresh start of a new month helps me psychologically. And I try my best every month, every day really…but right now I feel like I’m set up to do well this September. I don’t know why. I have a good feeling about it. And I’m not one to trust my intuition especially when it comes to unpredictable picking. But I just feel very strongly that I am at a point in my life that I need to move forward and leave the grips of this disorder behind. I know it will follow me my whole life. But for now, I need it to bug off. I’m going to try REALLY hard. I want it for myself and I also want to bring some hope to the community.
Stay tuned for some new mantras I wrote in the shower. (Literally…on waterproof paper)
PS sorry I haven’t been interacting much with everyone on here…it’s the fatigue. What I wouldn’t do to not have this constant freakin fatigue.